Pretender

I like it when you take the reigns

It's easier than playing games

I've come to appreciate a direct exchange

I'm stronger now that I'm softer too

I'm older now

But feel younger than when I

Pretended to know everything

Wanted to win rather than learn something

I'm glad I stayed myself

Even when I wanted to be someone else

I didn't listen with my gut and it shows

I could never get too close

Had all my walls up

But I am more than my defenses

I'll break them all down

I've made promises to myself and I intend to keep them

I deserve my honesty

How sweet it could be

If I could love myself

Even when I wanted to be someone else