My Exit, Unfair

My exit, unobserved, my homesickness, absurd

I said "water," expecting the word

Would satisfy my thirst!

Talking all about the second and third

When I haven't understood the first.

Jonah, where's that boat going -

Your ship set with eager sails?

There's a swirling storm soon blowing

And no use, fishermen, in rowing from a consecrated whale!

And just like the clouds they bring a darkness and a hard rain's gonna fall

I felt the crowds bring a loneliness and a hard rain's gonna fall.

She always weighed me down

But, afraid I might need her, I dragged her around

(It's best to keep close sackcloth and ash in a whitewashed town)

She wore that phony smile on her face,

I guess like a bandage on a wounded place

While I kept the keys to every old lock just in case.

Rehearsed indifference tossed aside,

Our narrow arms spread wide,

"What unseen pen etched eternal things on the hearts of humankind -

But never let them in our minds?"

The clouds they brught a darkness

And a hard rain's gonna fall

And all my laughter ends in emptiness

And a hard rain's gonna fall.

My every medicine causes more illness

And a hard rain's gonna fall

And until I let you go I didn't know, you were never mine at all

But now I spend my days in ever-increasingly complicated ways

Convincing myself of the rightness of each word I say

My exit, unfair if unobserved! My exit, unfair if unobserved!

Ya sabur, subhannallahi, a-uduhu billah minash-shaitnair-rajim, al-hamdu lillah, bismillahir rahmanir rahim.