Save me from myself

God

They won't stop

They're loud again

I'm scared of what they want from me

God help me

These voices tell me I'm not worth a thing

They push and push until I can't fucking think

I try to breathe but everything feels wrong

I've been holding on to nothing for too long

They say I break the people that I love

They say I ruin everything I touch

They say I'll never change I'll never heal

They get so loud I can't control what I feel

I'm scared they'll make me hurt myself again

I'm scared I'll lose whatever strength I have left

I'm scared of nights where I just shut down

I'm scared of me when no one is around

Save me

I'm falling faster than I want to admit

These thoughts hit harder than they fucking should hit

I try to fight but I can't slow them down

They scream my name every time I'm on the ground

Save me

The pills don't help they only mute the noise

But when they fade I lose what's left of my voice

I sit alone and shake until I crack

I feel like I can never get myself back

I hurt the ones who try to stay with me

I push them off before they even see

I hate myself for everything I've done

I'm tired of feeling like I'm always the wrong one

Save me

I'm scared of what they make me do

Save me I can't get through

They tell me I'm nothing

They tell me I'm broken

They tell me I'll never be fucking okay

God don't let me end this way

Save me from myself

I'm losing air I'm losing what I felt

If someone hears the shaking in my breath

Don't let me fade don't let me fear what's next

God

I'm still here

But I'm not okay

Please don't let me disappear