mental health.

I think about killing myself on the daily

Everyone loves, but I feel like they hate me

I can't explain the way that I feel

So everyone thinks that I hate them, I hate me

Blame myself for all of this hell

Mama would tell me I need to get help

But she isn't here 'cause she followed through

I guess that explains my mental health, health

I've been through hell

I used to fantasize about being like everyone else

But Satan took my mom away, my other mom just bailed

I haven't seen my sister since my dad was locked in the jail

Inside is all mine

I sit alone at night and cry in my studio

Begging God, "Please, just tell me why"

The only one that really cares is my wife

Don't get me wrong, she's all I need

But even she has a family

Who am I supposed to talk to

When I got questions about being a father nobody responds to?

I'm tired of learnin' on my own

I just want my kids to grow up in a happy home

They're happier when daddy's home

But they would rather see me work a nine to five

You can't afford to sacrifice, just give up all your dreams and die

But tell your kids that they can fly

I wonder why we always fightin', why I'm at an all-time

Faith broken

Fate knockin'

They're loathin'

I'm never getting older

This moment is misjudged

Can you focus, this feeling that it's over?

I think about killing myself on the daily

Everyone loves, but I feel like they hate me

I can't explain the way that I feel

So everyone thinks that I hate them, I hate me

Blame myself for all of this hell

My mama would tell me I need to get help

But she isn't here 'cause she followed through

I guess that explains my mental health, health

I've been through hell

These voices tellin' me that I'll never get out of my cell

I used to walk the hallways and I talked to myself

Now I got people always tryna tell me they proud

I don't believe you, I've never seen you

I'll never please you, I never need you

So please relieve you, I'm pleased to leave you

Here's a review, your heart is see-through

It's hard to see through

If I'm beneath you, then let me redo

I need some peace to breathe, 'cause everybody's countin' on me

And sometimes I just can't sleep

My mind's got me on my knees

I've never thought my life would come to this

I know that Jesus made me for a purpose, but I feel I may succumb to this

Pressure in my head, you're better off dead

I'm a mess, what's success if you got no one left to share it with?