Spank

I don't remember the first time

But I think I'll survive

Probably better not to try to recall

Cause it feeds it, yeah, keeps it alive

There are specific things

That I have to do

Day to day just to keep it at bay

You wouldn't believe if you knew

([TOM:] Oh no, this isn't real [x2])

Here's a little secret

Here's the best part

This is going to take me

Right back to the start

If I can hear it

If it's out of mind

Wait until it settles

Come try it a second time

I don't remember the first time,

But I think I'll survive

Probably better not to try to recall

Cause it feeds it, yeah, keeps it alive

([TOM:] Oh no, this isn't real)

([ALISSA:] Yeah)

Here's a little secret

Here's the best part

This is going to take me

Right back to the start

If I can hear it

If it's out of mind

Wait until it settles

Come try it a second time

I can feel it loom

Up into my head

It is in the room

Panic in my head

I feel it coming on

Taking over view

Oh please not tonight

There's nothing I can do

This is bigger than me

This is in my fear

This is pitiful

I just disappear

Swears are falling from me

Swallowed up inside

Sell my senses if it

Would make this subside

I can barely handle

I can hypothesise

Sailing through the curtains

Up into the sky

Where there is no

Depth perception

Keep preoccupied

Self deception

Nobody recognizes

It doesn't have a name

My brother is infected

He's acting just the same

Screaming like a siren

Up and down the hall

He just wants to stop it

He wants to end it all

I am just a child

I am nothing more

Than the basic functions

I am running from

I curl up and wallow

My distortion

Everything is

Disproportioned

Sadly they don't break

All is back again

Everything is closer

Morning is the same

And I can hear it

It is raining mind

I will just forget this

'Til the next time