It's Hard To Talk About

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5"5 but a height like my equal

Thicker than my hand's callouses

Trauma shrank yours but our hearts are the same ties

I promise

Before and after

I caught your sight so you invaded mine

I was intrigued so I stuck around

Awkwardness aside we started hanging out

You were too hot to handle but I love spicy food

You endured my weirdness and my crib was limited so we linked outside of it

Smoked around the corner, down the block, up the street, at the park

Before I knew it wе was meeting everywherе

Now I'm at your parents

You have a better relationship than me with my mother, go figure

Now we each other's and that means two worlds to me

Merely one disrespects the feeling

And somehow I do just that anyway

And you took it on the chin

Complacency and immaturity confiscates wins

I had to vanquish both

Negativity like a twin ember, it attaches to me and does no favors

I couldn't even tell you what the flavor profile is, it simply ruins dinner

Insecurity and I play this silly cat and mouse game

It corners me often

I push you away which heightens my own loneliness

Genius move if I'm being dishonest

Screaming, fighting, lights flickering, tremble

Members of a team checking to see if it is what it seems

It's hard to talk about because I'm embarrassed

By my failure to address my own taxing habits

Everything has a cost whether you know if you being charged or not

Now we ain't looking so hot

You want space and one gaze in your face lets me know that that desire is sincere

No one knows you better than me besides the people who birthed you

I insulted the intel and I'll never do that again

I love life without the love of my life is an oxymoron

So in honor of the moronic

I wait and wander, wander and wait

Under the hood of myself

Performing overdue maintenance, wait

Acquiring confidence and practicing patience

Wait

Restoring the weight of my pace

Ay