HAPPY FEELS LIKE

After all of this time

After every goodbye

I just wanna know what-

I find myself in this place again

I don't know what to call it, but it ain't depressed

I don't know if I'm here or I'm dead

Buried with the things I regret

Talking to the wall like a friend

Half the time, I'm dealing with a feeling that I can't define

Lookin' in my past for a sign

That something's gonna feel like it did

But nothin' ever feels like it did, so

I take a pill every day

Try not to think about it

Wish all my problems away

Try not to think about it

But I don't think I can change

When all I think about is what I used to feel like

Maybe I should realize

After all of this time

After every goodbye

I just wanna know what happy feels like

'Cause I've been wasting my time

Always chasin' a high

I just wanna know what happy feels like

I thought that money and trust could buy security

Two things that only enable the thing that's hurting me

Two things that only enable the insecurities

And that's the only thing I feel, so I still

Take a pill every day

Try not to think about it

Wish all my problems away

Try not to think about it

But I don't think I can change

When all I think about is what I used to feel like

I just wanna feel right

After all of this time

After every goodbye

I just wanna know what happy feels like

'Cause I've been wasting my time

Always chasing a high

I just wanna know what happy feels like

I tell myself, "It's okay" (try not to think about it)

Say, I can live with the pain (try not to think about it)

Push everybody away (when all I think about is)

What I used to feel like

Feels like I'm goin' insane (try not to think about it)

I'm even sick when I'm safe (try not to think about it)

So, what the fuck do I say? (When all I think about is)

What happened to my life?

What happened to my life?

How can I get some peace and rest? I just wanna know

After all of this time (this time)

After every goodbye (every goodbye)

I just wanna know what (what ha-) happy feels like (what it feels like)

'Cause I've been wasting my time (wasting my time)

Always chasin' a high (chasin' a high)

I just wanna know what (what) happy feels like