The Life I Hate

Kill me kill me now

My mind is flashing

Iridescent shades of red

Watching me dying

Fantastic dream in my head

Why must I live

Its my choice

By right I should die

Repeated reasoning

Then I think maybe I should try

Edge of my silver

Gleams from the light

My mind screams this is the night

Curse me and let me die

I screeach out loud

"release me"

I hate this life

You must let me go

First shaving of flesh and meat

Hangs from my arm

Watching my blood spurt and spill

Makes me grow alarmed

Halfway is not good enough

I can't bear this pain

Red is splashing now silently like rain

Twirling and twisting

I feel dizziness

My throat swells up

Not only is there chunks and blood

And now I vomit-I threw up

This horrid mess Im creating

A sight I must endure

To exit life and enter death

This is my cure

Seeing my blood dance down walls

Tears stream down my face

I watch in awe

A collage of frenzied and confused thoughts

Saliva meets blood as it strings from my jaw

Kill me kill me now

Cure me and let me die

I screeach out loud

"release me"

I hate my life

Fuck off world

Now I go