Meaningless

I still smell of sweat

Still the scent of my giving in

Tried to feel regret

But I want it to stay on my skin

I still fantasize

Close my eyes to the wrong again

Still those 'fuck me' eyes

As I'm licking the palm of my hand

How the hell am I supposed to keep myself

When you are so damn far away

And everything feels meaningless

And I am not mine?

How the hell am I supposed to keep myself

When you are so damn far away

And everything feels meaningless

And I am not mine?

I still smell of sex

Still her taste on my fingertips

Try to feel remorse

But it's hard with her wet on my lips

How the hell am I supposed to keep myself

When you are so damn far away

And everything feels meaningless

And I am not mine?

How the hell am I supposed to keep myself

When you are so damn far away

And all I do seems meaningless

And I am not mine?

I need something of my own

Something with a locked door

A room just for me alone

Something that I can control

I need something of my own

I need something cutting to the bone

I need something that is mine

If that must be guilt then fine (How the hell)

I wanted something nice and fine

This guilt is a hole but it's mine

I wanted something nice

This guilt is a hole but it's mine