crumbling / suicide note

I wish that I could find another way

But I am not alive, already dead

So long before I

I wish you knew how I feel

About you, about you

Don't think it's sad too

Sad too

Suffer I'm glad too

Glad too

I'm crumbling down

I am still stuck in this town

Life of a letdown

Letdown

Jumping to get down

Get down

And I need some help

As for it, no chance it help

Laugh at it, after we fail

But I can't get up again

Do some more to sober up

Five-cards wants to blow me up

Falling is the best of fun

The last look at this gun

Every room in my house is a fucking mess

I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast

Maybe that's what it takes to wake up my friends

Hope you know what you were missing then

I wanna write a note that makes my friends cry

Write a note that makes my friends cry

Really makes me wanna take my life

Take my life

(Hey, uhm... it's me and I don't really know how to say this, but...)

(I don't think uhm...)

(I'll be coming home tonight, and I just wanted to let you know that)

(It's not your fault and I love you a lot. Uhh...)

(You know I've been thinking about this for a)

(While and I... settled on it y'know so I love you)