Memento Mori

Tip your cups, to the late night writing binge

Of stage fright, another playwright dies again

I reach for great heights and play my violin

On my vocal chords where the great whites hide within

Neglecting broken veins and the ventricles that break

When I'm hiding what I feel in a Texas hold 'em face

I better fold that ace, and find a past time

Pride has flatlined and my pedestal's at stake

Reality's orphan kid, casualty abortion vict'

Journalist of worth, personality contortionist

My claws scrape the granite

Scratchin' pain poems in hallways I'm trapped in

I think of Colepaugh taking his final breath

And the bullets that he lodged in David McDonald's chest

I swear to god that I felt the bullets too

In a homicide–suicide I sing the ocean blues

Hear the sounds of a thousand broken spirits

A man who wouldn't lie and a crowd who won't endear it

Confessions of a clown that's sounding so sincere when

I've got a ghost, but he never stays in touch

Another hole to dig and another grave to love

Another fifth is gone, another day that sucks

Another dream is dead as the summer fades to dusk

I gotta find the time of day when I'm awake and no

I'm not afraid to migrate and hide away alone

Every single song I make is another piece of my

Peace of mind, if I fall in line and swallow pride I'll (choke)

On rum and cokes, I'm runnin' low on beer and weekend booze

Just to ink a song and singalong right here to sing to you

I'm out of love and tired when I'm sounding uninspired

And I'm drinking 'til I puke without a single reason to

With a one-one-two, when I confront you

When I do all the things that the fuck-ups do

Come to another place, undo lovin' mistakes

When I'm summonin' something abundant I'm lovin' instead of just runnin' away

Way to look past this is gaze through look glasses

Semantics passions practiced actions

And that's it when I catch wind in antics

(I wrote this for you Phoenix)

(Listen)

Every single night I pray my letters form a kiss

And it blows through the wind until it rests upon her lips

A metamorphosis that the butterflies imagine

In undecided fashion when weather storms emit

She settles scores with this and I just sit enchanted

As fireflies dance until her wish is granted

I listen frantic to melodies of heartbreak

It feels so temporary but she's telling me its always

I'd die in hell so my angel's not alone

And I'd swim inside her blood for a fatal drop of hope

Just to prove our engagements are soluble

And dance to the chorus when the rain hits the solitude

And breaks into molecules, that's her

Another piece of me that feels but can't hurt

I stand firm in this apocalyptic breeze

'Til finally fall apart and then my confidence is breached

And I'm gone, and I'm gone

Go find someone else to fucking lie to

Just not me

Would've been three years today

But I'm gone

"Can't you hold my hands and warm me?"

"Stay with me until the horror is over?"

"It's so empty all around me"