how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

i thought too long about dying

i forgot how to feel alive

waves of nausea wash over me

it's snowing and i know it's hard to breath

you say things like "i'll always love you"

but every night i'm locking up my room

waves of nausea wash over me

it's snowing and i know it's hard to breath

you say things like "i'll always love you"

but every night i'm locking up my room

but you just can't quite get it right in your head

to get yourself up out of bed

out of bed

up out of bed

up out of bed

i feel myself dissolve

into a misremembered fog

where we don't know where it all begins

and it's coming up

feeling again

you don't know what a struggle this has been for me, commander

well, i'd like to help if i can

being afraid, all the time of forgetting somebody's name

not, not knowing what to do with your hands

i mean, i, i am the guy who writes down

things to remember to say when there's a party

and then, when he finally gets there, he winds up alone in the corner

trying to look comfortable, examining the potted plant

you're just shy, barclay

"just shy", sounds like nothing serious, doesn't it?

you can't know