jisatsu girl (自殺)

I feel like I am dead

Can't get outside my head

My head

I feel like I can't move

Just don't know what to do

To do

I hate being alive

Slit my wrist I wanna die

Wish I wasn't such a guy

Stay inside like all the time

Life just feels like such a pain

I really hate everything

Motivation is so drained

And I really hate my face like

Ooooh

Been so long since I have cleaned my room

Been so long since I have made my fucking bed

I feel so made fun of by all of my friends and

I feel so degen

I wake myself at 1 pm

I hate this life I think of death

But I'm too scared of nothingness

I'm not prepared to leave this world

I wish I was an average girl

Instead I struggle to feel real

Instead I struggle to see a life where I pay bills

I feel like I am dead

Can't get outside my head

My head

I feel like I can't move

Just don't know what to do

To do

I don't know why I try

Bad decisions I just cry

See incisions on my thighs

Next to prickly bumps of mine

Everything is strange

Why do I feel so much pain?

My hair feels so disarrayed

And I cannot feel okay like

I don't have like any power

Feel like my life is over

Only have me to blame

Throw on a skirt and

Run outside again

Embarrassing

Myself for hours

Feel ashamed my shitty mood

I've fucked my life too soon

I know I'm not doing too well

I'll end up a jisatsu girl

If I don't grab onto myself

If I don't lose my fucking mind without some help

I feel like I am dead

Can't get outside my head

My head

I feel like I can't move

Just don't know what to do

To do