If I Was Dead

Lately I've been learning to let go

To let go of anything

Lately I've been seeing someone I don't know how to put behind me

And it scares me

Somehow, I don't know how

I don't know how this rapture found me

But I'm cradling it now

I don't know, I'm not in denial

This is one thing I'm taking with open arms

Cause your body throws away its leaves

And it leaves me for dead

No choice but love in the afterlife

Til we exhaust ourselves in the heat of it all

Still we lie next to each other

In silence, still breathing

Solid gold like solid love

How do you recognise it

I don't know, I guess

I don't know, I guess in dreams I find it

I've been loving from time to time

And when I returned, you listened

So I stayed here in what felt right

Even if it took time

Cause your body throws away its leaves

And it leaves me for dead

No choice but love in the afterlife

Till we exhaust ourselves in the heat of it all

Still we lie next to each other

In silence, still breathing

If I was dead

If I was dead