Relief Next to Me

I miss you now

I guess like

I should have missed you then

My body moves

Like curtains waving in and out of wind

In and out of windows

I can't untangle, I can't untangle

What I feel and what would matter most

I can't close an eye

I can't close an eyelid

And now there's just no point,

In reaching out for me

In the dark,

I'm just no good at giving relief

In the dark,

It won't be easy to find relief

And I'm not proud

That nothing will seem easy about me

But I promise this

I won't go my whole life

Telling you I don't need

But I promise this

I won't go my whole life

Telling you I don't need

I'll tell you now

I guess like

I should have told you then

The thunder moves

Like damn drawers slamming in my frame

Slamming in my framework

I can't untangle, I can't untangle

What I know and what should matter most

I can't close an eye,

I can't close an eyelid

And now there's just no point,

In reaching out for you

In the dark,

I'm just no good at giving relief

In the dark,

It won't be easy to find relief

And I'm not proud

That nothing will seem easy about me

But I promise this

I won't go my whole life

Telling you I don't need

But I promise this

I won't go my whole life

Telling you I don't need

But I promise this

I won't go my whole life

Telling you I don't need

But I promise this

I won't go my whole life

Telling you I don't need