alive

I'm worried one morning

I'll wake up with a gun in my hand

Nails painted red

Did I die in my sleep?

I will never trust the deepest parts of me

Not even in death

I just wanna be inside my body

I need to know I'm alive

Alive

I'm worried I'll never keep hold of anything good

I'll keep letting go

Did I cry in my sleep?

I will never trust the weakest parts of me

Not even my bones

I just wanna feel right in my body

I need to feel like I'm alive

Alive

I wanna, I wanna feel

I wanna feel alive

I wanna, I wanna feel

I wanna feel alive

I wanna, I wanna feel

I wanna feel alive

I wanna, I wanna feel

I wanna feel alive

I wanna, I wanna feel

I wanna be alive

Alive