With Autumn I'll Surrender

As autumn sets fire to days

We can no longer hold on

We are burning in water

Steadily drowning in flames

While in my dreams we're still roaming

Through these fields together

In my dreams it's still young love

Yearning for forever

Like the last days of a suicide kid

Borrowing happiness from tomorrow

Still and always craving for summer

But for a summer so many years ago

Those who got outcast from their hometown

Will burn it down to roughly feel its warmth

Like a fire-theft in times of peace

Now break my heart and take your piece

...oh what a flammable heart I've been given

Sometimes the people around you won't understand your journey

And fuck, that's just fine, cause it was never meant for them

Cause the eyes, useless when the mind is blind

And by the time we learn to live, it may already be too late

Maybe you think that I got thorns on my tongue

Cause of the words that I said or the way I spoke

But my heart was just growing roses

My heart was always searching for a place in the sun

Cause some days I'm the "Starry Night"

Then other days I'm the suicide letter

And I keep on craving for summer

But for a summer many years ago

And so I became who I always hated

And my life, worth one more tragedy

And so I destroyed everything

And turned my back on the world

...blame it on my wild heart

It's a walk among tombstones

Everyone I loved left or died

Death still conducts, still sings our songs

And this poem of life ended with a scream