LOST MYSELF

I feel like I lost myself when I started going out, taking drugs just to numb my pain

I think I lost myself when my mother look into my eyes and told me that I'm "not the same"

I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict

Looking at the world like it's crazy

There's no one to save me

And there's only one reason that I'm mad

I'm mad because I

I know I should have asked for more than what I've gotten

It's hard to bite the apple when you know the apple's rotten

They feeding me unhealthy habits but I couldn't stop it

They told me love is natural but this is feeling forced

Don't bite the hand that feeds who

Well unless of course

Unless it's constantly feeding you things that you can't stomach

I'm not the one to tell them that I always ran from it

Confrontation makes me sick I feel like I'ma vomit

I don't wanna be the person that just hides behind every wall

I throw up, while I die inside

This knot in my stomach won't stop until it's tied my mind

It's held me down for too long and now my breath is gone

I hope I get a second chance but there's no death respawn

I know I'm probably not the person that can love on you

But I'm a walking consequence of what love can do

And if they treating you like dirt then they gon' shovel you

Into your grave where you will die and then cover you

And swear to god, and claim that they were loving you

Cause when you're six feet down there no longer under you

Having a higher person doesn't mean you're fireproof

X got shot, all he did was inspire youth

If I could do one this it'd be inspired you

To look inside the mirror and stop lying

To the only fucking person that would die for you

I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one

Ay

I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them

Ay

I think I lost myself when I found all my friends doubting all the dreams that I had

Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me

That ain't the only reason that I'm mad

I'm mad because

Found myself trapped in the dark, sad in my hard mad a god just to cap it all off

Your words and eyes, they ain't matching at all

But nowadays I smile, I'm just laughing it off

It's a prison cell in the head all the time

When you're going to hell just to get through life

Just to make it through another night

Another sibling tryna' pick a fight

Family's not normal, guess that it's alright

I just learned to live with it and adapt to life (life)

In fact who am I kidding

Can you pass the knife?

Just so I can slice into the afterlife

The only time I'm happy when I grab the mic' is when they can't be happy so they mad that I'm

It's like they don't have passion so they after mine

Asking a bunch of questions but I answer mine

I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one

Ay

I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them

Ay

I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict

Looking at the world like it's crazy

There's no one to save me

And there's only one reason that I'm mad

I'm mad because I