Razorblade Salvation

I know all the times were hard

I know that you've been feeling down

If you only knew how I'm feeling for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away

If you only knew how I'm feeling

Mommy, I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry

To be honest with you, I don't think that I want to die

Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in other's lives

That's probably why I drink at night and sleep 'til four or five

It's kind of hard walkin' through life with my distorted eyes

When I was younger, I was stupid and I thought I'd thrive

I thought a lot about everything I said in the letter

And questioned whether or not if I was dead, you'd be better

You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her?

It's too late now, mommy, I could never forget her

Could never forget how she taught me to love

'Cause my father and my grandmother is always above

It's glory above, you know that daddy taught me to thug

And every time we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs

Damn, I miss her, mommy, and it's hard to believe

That I'm grown and I don't understand it, why did they leave?

Better to die and sleep

The never-waking sleep

Than linger on and dare to live

When the soul's life is gone

You've been running around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one who's losing

You've been running around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one who's losing

Mommy, I think that I'ma try to stick around a while

I got a niece, and my nephews, they need me 'round a while

I think they need me 'cause they hittin' that age

And they ain't tryin' to speak to Lenny 'cause they spittin' they rage

Yeah, and mommy, speakin' to Lenny, I think my brother need me

And we Italian, so you know my mother love to feed me

And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it

Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect

And when Jake got knocked, you knew that I was hurt

You told me put all of my heart in the song, and it worked

I promised him that I'd be there when he got out the bing

You ain't raise me to be a liar, ma, that's not my thing

I told him that I'd hold him down the whole time that he gone

They kept him locked inside a cage, but that's cool, 'cause he's strong

So mommy, keep that first letter I wrote you on the low

I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow

You've been running around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one who's losing

You've been running around for so long

You've been hurting yourself too much

You keep messing around with darkness

You're the one who's losing

You have power and money, but you are mortal

You know you cannot escape death

But immortality can be obtained

The legend is always the same

If others have succeeded in conquering death

Why must we accept it?

I know where the immortals live

And how to obtain their secret

We too must become wise men

The elements of chemistry are many, but finite

So are the techniques of enlightenment

I know all the times were hard

I know that you've been feeling down

If you only knew how I'm feeling for you

If I could take your pain

I wish that I could wash it all away

If you only knew how I'm feeling