Hate

All my time spent chasing distractions

Please don't leave me alone with my thoughts

Desperate for human interactions

Deflect the pain of life the pain of loss

I get wistful and tearful when I stop in my tracks

I get angry and ashamed when I remember who I am

My lonely behaviour undignified

I get scared of the nothing when I look inside

The world seems too vicious when I think of conditions

Incapable of inhibitions

Myself included with grounded expectations

What use is reason when we lose it with our patience

I get wistful and tearful when I stop in my tracks

I get angry and ashamed when I remember who I am

My lonely behaviour undignified

I get scared of the nothing when I look inside

Oh my rarer find

I don't like where my thoughts go where there's just me on my mind

Oh my troubled cure

I've also thought of the feeling of choking on your own sick before