Paid in Full

I was nowhere near

Ready when all it ended

So I hoped we could find a new day

Cannot live without you

You gave me the chance

Time and again, in vain

Now my feelings for you

Every tear, every smile

Paid in full

Break the chain

But no longer can I take the pain

It's hard for me to love myself right now

I've waited, hated

Blamed it all on you

Needed to be strong

Yet I was always too weak

So I can only blame myself

For this state we are in

I will take what you have

For me now, if it's not too late

Did you change? I did too

Love can grow from the last grain

It's hard for me to love myself right now

I've waited, hated

Blamed it all on you

I need you less and less

Every day feeds this moral decay

Yet I have grown to love you even more

I fall back, and I turn another cheek

You mouth the words you're not ready to speak

You're scared of me now; no I never had a clue

That I'd become so much stronger than you

I will take - what you have

For me now, if it's not too late

If you like, I will leave

I will not miss the last train again

It's hard for me to love myself right now

I've waited, hated

Blamed it all on you

It's hard for me to love your face right now

I'm waiting, hating

Needing being me

I need you less and less and

Every day leads us farther away

From that moment

It's hard for me to hate myself right now

Finally I'm understanding me

One day we may have a new "mes and yous"

But first I need to learn to love me too