Smothered

The black and cold reminds me

Of all the distance we have crossed

And if your darkness finds me

I could never be more lost

But I'm not the one who seeks your protection

I'm not the one to share the disguise

And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection

I'm not the one to tear the same way twice

You push from the inside, smothered

You push from the inside out, smothered

You push from the inside, smothered

You push from the inside out

Here all your walls surround me

They're closing in, they block my sight

The violence around me

Found me when I could not fight

But I'm not the one to take your direction

I'm not the one who wears the disguise

And I'm not the one to share your reflection

I'm not the one you break the same way twice

You push from the inside, smothered

You push from the inside out, smothered

You push from the inside, smothered

You push from the inside out

I will never win

I will never win with you

I will never win

I will never win with you

I read you

I feel you

Wound up no more than you know

I hate you

I still do

Everytime you let me go

You push from the inside, smothered

You push from the inside out, smothered

You push from the inside, smothered

You push from the inside out

(I will never win) You push from the inside

(I will never win with you) You push from the inside

(I will never win) You push from the inside

(I will never win with you) You push from the inside

Smothered, I'm smothered