A Suicidal Failure

Remember how good things used to be?

Remember how good things everything used to be?

It used to just be so good

It used to just be me and this girl

My mask of sanity's about to slip!

Sittin in my room with a razor blade

Thinkin all my days are played

As much as my single needs to fade away

Shoot myself in the arm and start bleedin

Don't wanna go yet, stick a straw in my

Wound and taste my heart beatin

Fuckin bitch left me and I ain't even peeped yet

(Fuck all that noise playboy, this leak's wet)

Smoke a bundle to the face lace my brain and neurons

Carvin all my downfalls into my fuckin forearm

(Cage snap out of this, it's just a girl)

It's just the world, it's just a life

It's just a rusty Rambo knife

Wedged between my ribs scratchin my heart up tonight

I'm gonna pull this shit off in front of all my friends

Went swimmin under the Brooklyn Bridge tryna catch the bends

Didn't swim deep enough my head imploded ten percent

Floated to the surface, the paramedic's like - what's this dent?

(I want everbody to back up, he's still alive)

I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure

I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error

Do what I can to catch a quick death

But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with

I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure

I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error

Do what I can to catch a quick death

But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with

Took the phone off the hook, ate multi-colored pills

Washed it down with Absolut and started writin out my will

Give my dawg bootlegs PS2 in DC

To my girl who left me when she said, "Pick me or PCP"

Since I love to smoke I thought it was a joke

Tried to hang myself and I fell free from the rope

Broke both my arms, my neck smashed my femur

Got up somehow and limped in front of a beamer

Cracked my rib cage, look what you did Cage, you're dying

But I'm not dead yet I'm still trying

Cut my wrist and walked past some crips bleedin red

In hopes that I get shot in the fuckin head

I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure

I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error

Do what I can to catch a quick death

But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with

I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure

I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error

Do what I can to catch a quick death

But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with

I drank a bottle of Jack, sniffed three bottles of kitty

In the middle of the freeway walkin to the city

So much PCP I changed my name to watermouth

Pumpin Masta Ace I walked into a jewish slaughterhouse

Throw myself on the hook, now that's the chorus

Got split from my neck to my dick, now that's what gore is

Hollow man look at all my dangling parts

Dropping to the gutter with a piece of you in my heart

Little piece of shit that I couldn't fling from my chest

Should of stayed alive long enough to kill the fag you're with

But right now, my skin is gettin stripped off

Each one of my limbs is ripped off covered in thick sauce

My head hits the conveyer, I'm not thick and a prayer is sick

I'm watchin a movie at Lowe's alone and you suckin some guy's dick

Six seconds left when I die I'm gonna find her

On some Poltergeist shit while my face goes through the grinder

I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure

I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error

Do what I can to catch a quick death

But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with

I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure

I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error

Do what I can to catch a quick death

But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with