emails i can’t send

It's times like these wish I had a time machine

So I could see what you did October thirteenth

At 10:15, were you really asleep?

Were you lying to me and the family?

There's no us in us when I'm lacking trust

You wanna discuss, ugh

You disgust me

Don't make me cuss you out

Why'd you let me down?

Don't say sorry now

And thanks to you I, I can't love right

I get nice guys and villainize them

Read their texts like they're having sex right now

Scared I'll find out that it's true

And if I do, then I blame you for

Every worst that I assume

When I'm forty-five, someone calls me their wife

And he fucks our lives in one selfish night

Don't think I'll find forgiveness as fast as mom did

And, God, I love you, but you're such a dipshit

Please fucking fix this

'Cause you were all I looked up to

Now I can't even look at you

(You do)

I mean, as they say in Chicago

"He had it coming"