black or white

I used to think I was invincible

Start likin' a guy, then ghost him, not even cry

The thought of love was always miniscule

Havin' a boyfriend, I just never got the hype

So why can't I feel anything?

He likes me more, oh, what a shame

But then he ripped off my poker face

I fell in love, now I know why I ran away

'Cause I'm either black or white, I'm freezin' or on fire

Either I need you or I'm fine

I'm either black or white, that's why I'm terrified

'Cause when I'm in love, it takes over my life

(Oh) I lay the dealbreakers down every time

Say I lose feelings if the guy stops tryin'

But I only say that to incentivize

Him into not makin' me cry

So why can't I feel anything?

He likes me more, I better keep it that way

'Cause when he rips off my poker face

I don't know how to run away

'Cause I'm either black or white, I'm freezin' or on fire

Either I need you or I'm fine

I'm either black or white, that's why I'm terrified

'Cause when I'm in love, it takes over my life

Why do I only know extremes?

I don't know how to find the in-between

Why can't I desire something I don't need?