Rétrospection

Retrospection,

I'm looking at my life in reflection

The mishaps and sidetracks

and imperfections.

We turn to hit directions

on roads I never stayed on,

all my true friends and the ones

that never stayed long.

I'm conveying my thoughts,

while the beat plays on,

feeling nostalgic,

reminiscing on these gone

decisions are made wrong,

I'm thinking about them,

committing to stay strong,

no matter the outcome.

I wonder if I'd studied harder or

listened to my father

would have qualified for more,

but that's my kharma.

My mistakes were made

to educate me

and what don't kill me,

only stronger it makes me.

Pursuing my dreams now,

wherever it takes me,

whatever the case be,

the struggle that shaped me

into a better breed,

I bleed heavily on beats.

Heavily breath life into the

lungs of my memories

I'm looking back at the days gone by

Reminiscing with a smile

and a tearful eye

The past can't be change

honestly I wouldn't want to,

what makes me a man,

is everything that I've gone through.

My ups and my downs,

my trials and tribulations

of giving me my strength

for my determination.

Then what was never changed

seen from day one,

to know what you gonna got,

but remember where you came from

I sit and think of opportunities lost,

now I'm waiting at the door

when opportunity knocks.

Cause I ain't got time

to cotch (?) in front of the box.

I'm here making the most

'till opportunities stop.

In school the class clown

and the playground jester

I knew I wouldn't last for

another semester.

I messed up my football career,

didn't trust my ability,

it wasn't for the women and beer.

Now my vision is clear,

no inambitional fear,

my mission is to inspire,

many can listen and hear.

With humility I'm showing you

the shape of my heart.

No dramatics (?) fiatrics (?)

I'm playing my part.

Making a mark, my scars

grown further than flesh deep.

Can't tell them all,

cause some secrets are best kept.

The cross that I bear,

I wear around my necklace

A sign to remind me of times,

when I was reckless.

I'm looking back at the days gone by

Reminiscing with a smile

and a tearful eye

The past can't be change

honestly I wouldn't want to,

what makes me a man,

is everything that I've gone through.

My ups and my downs,

my trials and tribulations

of giving me my strength

for my determination.

Then what was never changed

seen from day one,

to know what you gonna got,

but remember where you came from

My worst fear is wishing

I could have done more

When I'm old and longing

The tomb (?)

What my life was done for.

Kick in the front door,

not ready to leave yet,

there's too much in my life

that I haven't achieved yet.

I've seen death flip my in the eye

with a cold stare,

It takes life indiscriminately,

you Don't care. There's no fear,

Like on my chin, when I grow hair. (?)

I wanted to break,

But wasn't old enough to go there.

Sneaking a guilted past

My old dear (?)

To Habits (?)

Some times I had to go bare

Far from proud,

but I'm holding my hands up.

Community service,

handcuffs and Dank druff (?)

The part of my development

from boy to man,

advise my dad gave I finally understand

Now here's a toast to my life

Everyone, I salute ya.

Commemorating the past

And Celebrating the future