Solitary Confinement

I really wish it never came to this

I wish it didn't feel like I was starting over again

I'm reeling in a line without a fish

And every day, I wake up and hear the pounding drum of failure in my head

Am I really doing nothing?

Or am I reaching out to something?

Someone waiting to catch me on the other side

Am I delaying the inevitable?

Am I running out of time?

You cannot isolate me past the walls that I have built

So, send your condolence cards

Thinking I've been held against my will

It's better, you believing I'm fighting for some greater good, I know

I know that I believe in nothing

And that I like being alone

Four hours in the Target parking lot

Contemplating mental brands still burning hot

I hope that one day the weight of my body in these seats will

Feel just right

But for now, the AC's always too cold

And the heat in winter melts the skin off of my bones

And I've started to ignore the check engine light

In hopes that a breakdown might give me a sign, oh

You cannot isolate me past the walls that I have built

So, send your condolence cards

Thinking I've been held against my will

It's better, you believing I'm fighting for some greater good, I know

I know that I believe in nothing

And that I like being alone

I like being alone

And there is bliss in solitary

Isn't it sobering?

And there is bliss in solitary

Isn't it sobering?

And there is fear in solitary

Isn't it sobering?

And there is pain in solitary

Isn't it sobering?

You cannot isolate me past the walls that I have built

So, send your condolence cards

Thinking I've been held against my will

It's better you believing I'm fighting for some greater good, I know

I know that I believe in nothing

And that I like being alone

I like being alone

I like being alone