dear friend (at the wake)

I don't know where to go

You left me there alone

I can't know where to go

You left me there, you left me

Rewind back to when I had another moment

Life's too fast, you can never know where you are going

Lately I've been zoning out in contemplative thought

Think about the moment where I am and where you're not

And it's ripping me apart to say

That I'm looking at the grave of a friend that I know won't come back

Lonely in the dark, I can't see, it's pitch black

Vivid memories they play, don't rewind that

Taking all my feeling and wrapped them up with saran wrap

Never waste a moment for something that never come back

Holding on the tread of a fire that had no pull back

Falling down a river of envy it's all in my head

Who gon' be there when I'm blackout drunk

In the night when my house has a fire up

No cops, no cars, just the burning sun

Coming down as the world finally ends the ones, damn

I don't know where to go

You left me there alone

I can't know where to go

You left me there, you left me

Dear friend I am writing you one last letter

Before you move on, die and go some place better

This is sore pain, nothing I cannot sweat

Feeling insane since you were met by death

And this loss is it constant pain?

Is it broken cause?

Is it lasting pain?

This is all so fucked up

I'm in constant angst

Wishing I said bye but you saw no next day

And I remember showing up to the wake

And I'm staring at your body, reaccepting the case

Like, how the ones you lose always hard to embrace

As you're staring at their death like a slap in the face

And this pain, is it caused by god?

Is it caused by faith?

Is it caused by odds?

It's too hard to say

Can't accept the ache

Can't accept this place

Living in a world where you're not here with me

I don't know where to go

You left me there alone

I can't know where to go

You left me there, you left me