self destruct

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith

If I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same

Staring at a screen to get through night and day

It's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place

I know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long

A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong

The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along

Upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?

Do I tear the seams or stitch em up?

If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun

But I can never do that

I can never do that

I can never do that, oh my god

Maybe I'm clueless

Ignorant to what the truth is

Can't run or hide, baby, it's useless

I know that I've been playing stupid

I gotta save myself

for me and for no one else

Before I decay or melt

Or wither away in hell

Tired of acting like it's fine

Wish I could speak my fucking mind

When I'm here, my tongue is tied When I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here Ignore all my biggest fears

Feel the sounds ring through my ears

Cause I know you wonder

where I've been and why I left so long

A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong

The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along

Upside down and nothing's where it belongs

Self destruct or fix me up?

Do I tear the seams or stitch em up?

If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun

But I can never do that

I can never do that I can never do that, oh my god