I'm Not Who I Was

Where were you?

Where were you?

Oh, oh

Where were you when I was 17?

You left me in pieces in between

Every word cut deeper than it seemed

You watched me bleed out quietly

I was young, I was so naïve

Gave you everything you'd ever need

You turned love into a disease

Left me scars I couldn't leave

But look at me now

I made it this far

Through everything

I'm not who I was when I was in love

You don't get to pull me under

I'm not who I was when I was with you

I don't feel you in my blood anymore

I'm not who I was when I gave you trust

You don't get to tear me open

I'm not who I was when I was with you

Now I'm everything you got in control

(Got in control)

Where were you when I was in my head

Spinning out, hanging by a thread?

Every night felt like I was dead

Talking to the silence in my bed

Where were you when I lost myself

Trying to be someone else?

You were never there to help

Just another version of my hell

But look at me now

I'm breaking the spell

You put on me

I'm not who I was when I was in love

You don't get to pull me under

I'm not who I was when I was with you

I don't feel you in my blood anymore

I'm not who I was when I gave you trust

You don't get to tear me open

I'm not who I was when I was with you

Now I'm everything you got in control

You said forever, then disappeared

Left me bleeding for another year

Now every shadow sounds like you

But I survived what you put me through

I'm not who I was when I was in love

You don't get to pull me under

I'm not who I was when I was with you

I don't feel you in my blood anymore

I'm not who I was when I gave you trust

You don't get to tear me open

I'm not who I was when I was with you

Now I'm everything you got in control

(Got in control)