All I Ever Am

I think too much of all that's gone

Of how it was before my thoughts

Obsessed with choices made for sure

In ignorance of history

And consequence as more and more

I misremember hopelessly

The way love turned out every time

Was never quite enough

I lose all my life like this

Reflecting time and memories

And all for fear of what I'll find

If I just stop and empty out my mind

Of all the ghosts and all the dreams

All I hold to in belief

That all I ever am

Is somehow never quite all I am now

I think too much of all to come

Of how it will be after I give up

My weary dance with age

And resignation moves me slow

Toward a dark and empty stage

Where I can sing the world I know

The way love turns out every time

Will never be enough

I waste all my world like this

Intending time and memories

And all for fear of what I'll find

If I just stop and empty out my mind

Of all the ghosts and all the dreams

All I hold to in belief

That all I ever am

Is somehow never quite all I am now

And all for fear of what I'll find

If I just stop