Dizzy Paranoia Girl

Expectations high from the start - I'll just mess it up

Congratulations, you fell apart - fuck, I messed it up

They tell me I just need to grow up

But I know that they think that I'm not enough

Pirouette your view, and you'll see

There's no cure for burnt out and naive

(It's killing me)

Spinning all around, I think I spun out - my fault by default

Thoughts racing up and down, oh, what to do now?

Follow protocol

But I hate this, I don't wanna play ball

I just wanna end this once and for all

Panic all around but never make a sound

Emotional free fall

Stab me with an IV - tell me that it's to protect me

Tell me I should be ignoring everything that makes me bleed

Cynicism inbound - common sense nowhere to be found

I'll bottle up the thought that I'd be better off left underground

It's not my decision if I make it through the night

And I keep crashing through collisions like a dying parasite

Love is an incision that cuts deeper than a knife

But I'll still see it in my vision 'til the afterlife

Ha ha ha ha - laugh through every day

No matter what I do, nobody has a clue

Life's always been this way

I hate, hate, hate this arbitrary game

No matter what you heard, you'll never hear the words

Nobody dares to say

Say you'll be my friend to the very end

But I'm in my head, in my head and I'm seeing red

In a superficial ecosystem recognise the repetition

Otherwise you'll end up dead

I'll underestimate (overcompensate)

Circumstantiate (hyperventilate)

Rehabilitate (decontaminate)

Losing at the games I told you I don't wanna play

Expectations hitting the ground - my fault by default

No-one left to catch me when I fall down - no more protocol

Feel it in my cells, my final farewell

An antidote, my stairway to Hell

Panic all around, but now I'm yelling out

The one thing I recall

Stab me with an IV - but I know you won't protect me

And I can't keep on ignoring when you make me wanna bleed

Cynicism inbound - common sense nowhere to be found

I'll bottle up the thought that I'd be better off left underground

It's not my decision if I make it through the night

And I keep crashing through collisions like a dying parasite

Love is an incision that cuts deeper than a knife

But I'll still see it in my vision 'til the afterlife

Ha ha ha ha - laugh through every day

No matter what I do, nobody has a clue

Life's always been this way

I hate, hate, hate this arbitrary game

No matter what you heard, you'll never hear the words

Nobody dares to say

And I keep screaming out the lyrics of this idiotic song

Hate me just because I never wanna play along

But I don't wanna live a life where I live in the wrong

Ha ha ha ha - laugh through every day

No matter what I do, nobody has a clue

Life's always been this way

I hate, hate, hate this arbitrary game

No matter what you heard, you'll never hear the words

Nobody dares to say

I'll take a final breath so they can all pretend

They loved me yesterday