Hurt The Ones I Love

I've been so distant i know, love

I've just been feeling everything

And when I'm hurting i go numb

Then I stop feeling anything

And when I'm spiraling out of control

I won't let you in

I get so bitter and put up my walls

And hurt you again

You know i shut myself down

Just to block out the pain

And i've been tryna be better

But i keep fading away

And when i'm caught up in my emotions

I'll push you out again

Cause when I hate myself enough

I hurt the ones I love

I get so caught in my moods

And say some things I don't mean

And im sorry im defensive

When you're only trying to help me

I can't help it

I hate how i can be

And when I'm spiraling out of control

I won't let you in

I get so bitter and put up my walls

And hurt you again

You know i shut myself down

just to block out the pain

And i've been tryna be better

But i keep fading away

And when i'm caught up in my emotions

I'll push you out again

Cause when I hate myself enough

I hurt the ones I love

And i'm the one to blame