treading water

And, oh, what a life to live

When you're dying for someone to give

To give you their love

To give you their love

Lie awake, stargazing, I won't sleep 'til morning

Echoes of your words saying, "Don't write a song for me"

Everything is wrong in me, raised under wings of demons

And even if God's with me, without you I have no reason

This'll be the last time you hear me say sorry

That'll be the last tear you waste on me crying

I broke this home, and just like my father, I'll die all alone

And, oh, what a life to live

When you're dying for someone to give

To give you their love

To give you their love

I'm looking at the kids' faces

Sitting in the driveway while I pack up suitcases

I just ruined their holiday, and lies don't die, they grow

And everything you try to hide eventually shows

The beast killed the beauty, the last petal fell from the rose

And I loved you truly, that's why it's hard to let it go

I broke this home, but I'll change for our daughter, so she's not alone

Oh, what a life to live

When you're dying for someone to give

To give you their love, to give you their love

And, oh, what a life to live (oh, what a life to live)

When you're dying for someone to give (when you're dying)

To give you their love (to give you their love)

To give you their love (oh)

I wrote this in Room Three, spending Christmas in rehabilitation

I got no phone, just a cell that I'm trapped in while my home's vacant

I'm an inpatient, but I lost patience

I just broke somethin', but I'm fixated

On the gossip that I know is happening

While I'm just being left out of the conversation

It's a complicated relationship, that's nobody's business

But I'm in this business, face it, I've been hiding from the ideation

That the public has been ruinin' my reputation

And it's crazy, seeing quotations from a source that somebody curated

'Cause for me, y'all can feel pure hatred, but just keep our baby out this situation

It's a long road to redemption, and a shorter one to damnation

I know which one is my destination

But the journey doesn't come without the frustrations

Like it doesn't come without the temptations

And failure can lead to an elevation

'Cause sometimes you gotta see what's waiting on the other side

And know your soul's worth saving

And, oh, what a life to live

When you're dying for someone to give

To give you their love

To give you their love