bloodstream

Maybe I was too young to fully understand

So I never healed from the healthy

Why I never trusted the man

You gotta love all that you have

And I'll take that to my grave

Soon you'll open up your eyes

And it'll all be gone one day

And I'm sitting here convincing you to pick up the phone and call

I am my father's daugher but I'm nothing like him at all

I hear him in the way I speak

And when I look in the mirror

The anger's grown in me it shows

Could it be any clearer?

That I'm like him 'cause he made me

The way I am when we're fighting

And all I need is somebody

And I'm crying on my mama's floor

Why dont you want this anymore?

And I'm craving you to change for me

You're saying "I hear you" and "I love you"

But my heart it hurts for you

And I just cannot give you what you need

Am I too much?

Am I enough?

'Cause you said you wouldn't give up

Now I'm numb on my knees

Praying to god you talk to me

Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind

And far out of my bloodstream

You never laid your hands on me and that's something I'm grateful for

But I should've known that you'd gone mad

When I saw the way you punched your doors

And I don't regret loving you

'Cause I know that you needed it

But the way you treated me

Made me feel like a little kid

And something deep inside of me

Tells me that you're not better now

And I'm sorry that I couldn't help

But I'm so glad I made it out

And I'm crying on my mama's floor

Why dont you want this anymore?

And I'm craving you to change for me

You're saying "I hear you" and "I love you"

But my heart it hurts for you

And I just cannot give you what you need

Am I too much?

Am I enough?

'Cause you said you wouldn't give up

Now I'm numb on my knees

Praying to god you talk to me

Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind

And far out of my bloodstream