as if

Why do I have to listen to you when you have zero to say?

Because I'm young?

All my life I've been young

So I never get a turn

Hyperaggressive if I'm honest, I can't stand to be alone

My friends are so progressive, they called me "faggot" a year ago

And I couldn't cut them off because then I'd be on my own

Being obsessive sounds depressing but it's just the way it goes

Just the way it goes

And will that ever fucking change?

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) never gonna change

My friends on fentanyl, I hope they're finding their peace

On life support for a week, I heard they died in their sleep

There's so much truth in the fiction, don't know what to believe

There's so much money in addiction that I'm dying to need

Something more (somethin' more, somethin')

I'm just dying to be something more, something more

And will that ever fucking change?

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm)

(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever get it right

(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever find the words

(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever be enough

(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever fuckin' change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change (I'll stay the same)

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

(As if I'm, as if I'm) never gonna change

Everybody talks to me like I'm the one, you know, I should change

Why should I change? I've never even gotten to find out who I am

And you want me to change, that's crazy

You tell me I'm bad before I even get to be anything

What the hell is that? Original sin or something?

It's you that wants the a before you even start

But when I say I want the same thing, I'm nuts, right?

I'm not gonna cry

I'm gonna find my place in this world, count on it