I’m Trying (Not Friends)

London 2020

Boy and a girl broke up, yeah, it's two a penny

And I been tryna make a big step forward

Saw you, it was awkward

Nothing like I thought would happen happened

I was so in love, and that don't come off in the wash

Kinda hope it does, oh

'Cause you're seeing someone pretty and I hate her guts

So I'll be telling you she's nice on the bus home

We were bad but we're gonna be good

It didn't work like I thought it would

And I resent you just a little if I'm honest

But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise

And I swore that I'd swallow my pride

And you swore you would do better this time

Well, I might be bitter and twisted and broken and petty and lying

But at least I'm trying

At least I'm trying

At least I'm trying

Three shots, lemon drops

One for being lost and alone in your early twenties

One for being obsessed with someone who puts you secondary

One for calling guys with guitars in a cemetery

Just me? Okay

If I'm being frank, I want a "sorry" but I'll settle for a handshake

'Cause I'm the baby but I'm gonna be the bigger man, babe

So many blank slates I could build a whole fucking house

We were bad but we're gonna be good

It didn't work like I thought it would

And I resent you just a little if I'm honest

But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise

And I swore that I'd swallow my pride

And you swore you would do better this time

Well, I might be bitter and twisted and broken and petty and lying

But at least I'm trying

At least I'm trying

Not friends

No, we're somewhere in between

'Cause you're awful and I miss you

And I killed you in my dream last night

Even then you didn't care

It's a low when even in my dreams you still don't want me there

Got friends, got at least a healthy five

Yeah, some people think I'm funny, baby, don't look so surprised

We think that your girlfriend is a bore

But we're nice to her in public 'cause we're grown up and mature

Not friends

'Cause when I asked you on the train why you hurt me

And you couldn't really actually explain

I cried, then I told you it was cool

God, you haven't changed at all

We were bad but we're gonna be good

It didn't work like I thought it would

And I resent you just a little if I'm honest

But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise

And I swore that I'd swallow my pride

And you swore you would do better this time

Well, I might be bitter and twisted and broken and petty and lying

And you might be awful like all of the time, yeah, it's almost inspiring

But at least I'm trying

At least I'm trying

At least I'm trying