Suicidal Thoughts

I'm not suicidal

I don't wanna fucking die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dying

Every day I feel like dying (dying)

Why do I even try?

Why do I even write

Lyrics about how I'm living the life?

When I'm battling pain and my demons at night

Trying to find a new outlet

The devil pounced in

I hear him howling, my vision clouded

Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way

Try to be strong when I deal with the pain

Yeah, put a bitch in the coffin

So my family has options

Gonna work 'til I'm dead

So that they get the best

Don't wanna set up a bad example

'Cause kids looking up

Can't leave them in shambles

Can't make them think clocking out is okay

So fuck suicide, I'm here to stay

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wasting all my time

Tryna find the light

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wasting all my time

Tryna find the light (nah, nah)

I'll be out here running

I'll be running from myself now

Gunning demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'll be running now

I'll be running from myself now

Gunning demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'm not suicidal

I don't wanna fucking die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dying

Every day I feel like dying (dying)

One too many bad thoughts inside me

Got a hole in my heart

Put the past behind me

I'm pressed with time

I'm stressed with life

My breath is ice

I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always

Barely standing

Crawling down the hallways

Sink into my bed

With death inside my head

Yeah, that note you found, I didn't mean it

Just wish I had a better sense of meaning

Never meant to let you down

I've been down and out

Racing thoughts, I had to drown them out, fuck

Never giving in, I swear to God

No matter how many times I prayed to a god I don't believe in

Just to see if I will never wake up, but he called my bluff

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wasting all my time

Tryna find the light

Try to free my mind

I don't know what's right

Wasting all my time

Tryna find the light (nah, nah)

I'll be out here running

I'll be running from myself now

Gunning demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'll be running now

I'll be running from myself now

Gunning demons down

Find my way out of this hell now

I'm not suicidal

I don't wanna fucking die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dying

Every day I feel like dying (dying)

I'm not suicidal

I don't wanna fucking die

Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

But every day I feel like dying

Every day I feel like dying (dying)