The Number You Have Dialed Is Not in Service

I'm fallin' apart

You mighta thought I was playin'

A part in the art I've created

But most of the words reflect what's happened

Or what is waitin' to start happenin'

I keep on damagin' myself

Tryna fill the void with all this water round my neck

I'm 'bout to drip until I drown

All these drugs up in my nose

I taste the drip, that shit's so sour

All these cars that I bought

Either don't start or they got impounded

Pursued the American dream

The nightmare's what I doubted

Catch a flight to London or I'll catch I flight to Lyon

Show my face in public, show another one at home

See my name on the marquee, letters fallin' down

Litterin' a cold dark street somewhere downtown

As soon as I reached cloud nine it started stormin'

Heavy thunderstorms in every city that I'm tourin'

Life ain't like a rap video, that's just a warnin'

Hopin' to see the sun when I wake up in the mornin'

All this misery, misery, misery, fuck

Look at my history, no mystery

Where I might end up, just shut up

Don't wanna hear it, it's my decision

May be my last wish so just please listen (not in service)

So long, it's been torture bein' here

So cold, gettin' high but now I cope with fear

Same song and I'm sick of singin' it

Let me move on, it's for my benefit

But one come all to my downfall

Bear witness to everything that I can't solve

My therapist made me promise before I end it all

That her phone would be the one I choose to call, cryin', askin'

Is it really worth it?

What's beneath the surface or behind the curtain?

Really don't think I wanna take this any further

Made one last attempt to figure out my purpose

I called her phone, it said, "Not in service"

When life gets hard (get's hard)

Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on)

Even if the finish line is far

Or you have to push the car (push the car)

Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on)

When life gets hard (get's hard)

Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on)

Even if the finish line is far

Or you have to push the car (push the car)

Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on)