Innocence

Just another waste of time and effort, of flesh and bone

Caught in the numbing turmoil of everyday existence

Looking in a mirror reveals the husk of my former self

It's hard to believe I used to be happier

I would live in blissful unawareness

As if nothing could take me from the moment

Innocence seemed to last forever

I would find comfort in the light of day

And dream of vibrant meadows

As the summer breeze lulled me to sleep each night

Happiness was never out of reach

Little did I know of the storm that was waiting

I saw the world for what it really was

A cesspool brimming with hate and sorrow

My blind optimism was my downfall

Now

Living in fear of what the next day will bring

I wish I had seen it before it was too late

Living in fear of what the next day will bring

I wish I had seen it before it was too late

Each day feels impossible to endure

Each night I drown my despair in alcohol

Each night I hope for someone to hide me from the bitter truth

To take me back to days when I wasn't so fucked up