A Good Start

I thought I was great

Having big discussions that led to nothing, but you

A form of my own

And I'm used to leaving you alone

I know it's surprising

And I know you think of me highly

I finally pulled apart myself

And analyzed everything I felt

I noticed I held on tightly, so

I never would have to lose control

I thought I was king

Making all that money that made me nothing

Cut to maniacal fits

And suppression losin' its grip

I know it's surprising

And I know you think of me highly

I think about where I'd even go

If ever I was to lose control

I'm whispering insults to myself

I'm boxed in and locked out

I'm layin' it all out here right now

I thought about ending it myself

I thought about all my shameful acts

And every secret that I've kept

Maybe I'll be happy again

And God will alleviate my sins

Considering every painful part

I'm off to a good start