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If I could turn back time

Maybe I could make you mine

How could I have been so blind?

Maybe I could make you mine

If I could turn back time

Maybe I could say hi

Maybe I'd feel relieved

Maybe that would give me closure

Maybe that's too naïve

Or maybe I could walk by

Wear my heart on my sleeve

And maybe we would lock eyes

And it'd be hard to believe

But maybe we would both laugh

And I could ask how she was

And wonder if she thinks about

The times we used to be us

And maybe I could ask why

Or maybe I would say please

But maybe she's with a guy

And maybe I should just leave

Or maybe I could stop time

'Cause the world to just freeze

Make corners of this room dissolve

With every breath that I breathe

Until it's just me and her

And we would fall from our feet

And flitter down into the pitch black

With no floor underneath

And we could fall through December

And maybe shatter through June

And we could crash land in April

And wake up back in our room

And she'd be there in my arms

Right before she was gone

And while I lay there, I'd retrace to myself

Where I went wrong

If I could turn back time

Maybe I could make you mine

How could I have been so blind?

Maybe I could make you mine

If I could hit rewind

Maybe I could make you mine

Maybe things would turn out fine

Maybe I could make you mine

Maybe she's just as bored

What if she's as depressed?

Maybe I should drink more

Maybe I should think less

How did things end so badly?

How did things even end?

I don't remember exactly, don't ask me

On our way back from Atlanta

We were holed up in a taxi

She was asleep in the backseat

I was just drinking a smoothie

Jamba Juice, mango and flax seed

She woke up groggy and tapped me

Headphones in, bumping to Max B

Looked at her, paused it on track three

She sighed and looked at me angry

I asked her, "What?"

And she snapped back, "Nothing, it's fine"

I said, "No, what's on your mind?"

She snapped back, "Nothing, it's fine!"

I said, "Well fuck it! I'm trying!"

She sniffled, "Fuck you!" while crying

Still have no fucking idea

The what, or the who, or the why

But we just stopped talking

And that was the end

No text or call or coffee

No "Let's just be friends"

We sat there silently through

North Carolina and West Virginia

And hours and hours passed

And the anxious quiet continued

'Til I fell asleep

And woke up to the driver alone

He told me he drove past her neighborhood

And dropped her off home

And that was it, and now we're here

Two dozen feet from each other

It feels like years since I've seen her

Two washed-up used to be lovers

We used to kiss under covers

And wrestle in blankets

And nestle each other

But I don't think I've got the courage to muster

Maybe I could say hi

Maybe I'd feel relieved

Maybe that would give me closure

Maybe that's too naïve

Or maybe I could walk by

Wear my heart on my sleeve

And maybe we would lock eyes

And it'd be hard to believe

But maybe we would both laugh

And I could ask how she was

And wonder if she thinks about

The times we used to be us

And maybe I could ask why

Or maybe I would say please

But maybe she's with a guy

And maybe I should just leave

Or maybe I could stop time

'Cause the world to just freeze

Make corners of this room dissolve

With every breath that I breathe

Until it's just me and her