I wish I was the same

I also wish I was the same

But nowadays I numb the pain

It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering

If im still struggling and underneath I am

I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam

So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?

When I tell you how I feel you just tell me that im lying

When I hide behind those walls, its because im fuckin' crying

Please don't ask to open up, cause I wont know what to say

And don't ask me for no trust, I just feel there's no way

Every person that I did broke it every single day

There's no chance to rebuild it, they broke it every way

And I wish I was the person that I was yesterday

I also wish I was the same

But nowadays I numb the pain

It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering

If im still struggling and underneath I am

Im just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam

So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?

When I tell you how I feel you just tell me that im lying

When I hide behind those walls, its because im fuckin' crying

And ill tell you next time I hope you don't think im lying

And its hard to be me

And its hard not to care

And when i tell them about my problems, they cant help but stare

And maybe im crazy, or maybe too aware

That this life is kinda shitty, I don't really care

I'm just asking for the old me, to please reappear

Cause im all outta' gas, and I don't know how to steer

And anybody in my past, I wish you could hear

And old me if you're listening, I wish you were here

I also wish I was the same

But nowadays I numb the pain

It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering

If im still struggling and underneath I am

Im just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam

So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?

When I tell you how I feel you just tell me that im lying

When I hide behind those walls, its because im fuckin' crying

And ill tell you next time I hope you don't think im lying